\"Nurse,\"quothshe,\"ofatruthIthoughtthatIfeltnoill;butIshallspeedilythinkthatIamsick。Themerefactofmythinkingofitcausesmemuchillandekealarmsme。Buthowdoesoneknowunlessheputittothetestwhatmaybegoodandwhatill?Myilldiffersfromallotherills;for——andIbewillingtotellyouthetruthofit——muchitjoysme,andmuchitgrievesme,andIdelightinmydiscomfort;andiftherecanbeadiseasewhichgivespleasure,mysorrowismydesire,andmygriefismyhealth。IknownotthenwhereofIshouldcomplain;forIknownoughtwhenceevilmaycometomeifitcomenotfrommydesire。
Possiblymydesireisamalady;butItakesomuchpleasureinthatdesirethatitcausesmeapleasantgrief;andIhavesomuchjoyinmysorrowthatmymaladyisapleasantone。Thessala,nurse!tellmenow,isnotthissorrowwhichseemssweettome,andyetwhichtorturesme,adeceitfulone?IknownothowImayrecognisewhetheritbeaninfirmityorno。Nurse!tellmenowthename,andthemanner,andthenature,ofit。ButbewellassuredthatIhavenocaretorecoverinanywise,forIcherishtheanguishofitexceedingly。\"Thessala,whowasrightwiseasregardsLoveandallhisways,knowsandunderstandsbyherspeechthatthatwhichdistractsherproceedsfromLove——becauseshecallsandnamesitsweet——itiscertainthatsheloves;forallotherillsarebittersavethatalonewhichcomesfromloving;butLovetransmutesitsownbitternessintopleasure,andsweetnessoftenturnstoitsopposite。ButThessala,whowellknewthematter,repliestoher:\"Fearnought,Iwilltellyouwellboththenatureandthenameofyourdisease。Youhavetoldme,methinks,thatthepainwhichyoufeelseemstoyoutobejoyandhealth:ofsuchanatureislove-sickness;forthereisinitjoyandsweetness。ThereforeIprovetoyouthatyoulove;forI
findpleasureinnosicknesssaveonlyinlove-sickness。Allotherillsasarulearealwaysgrievousandhorrible;butLoveispleasantandtranquil。Youlove;Iamfullycertainofit。I
regarditnotasbaseinyou;butIwillholditbasenessifthroughchildishnessorfollyyouconcealyourheartfromme。\"
\"Nurse,trulyyouaretalkingtonopurpose;forfirstImeantobecertainandsurethatneverbyanychancewillyouspeakthereoftoanylivingcreature。\"\"Lady,certainlythewindswillspeakofitsoonerthanIunlessyougivemepermission;andofthisIwillmakeyousure——thatIwillhelpyouwithregardtothismatter,sothatyoumayknowofasurety,thatbymeyouwillhaveyourjoy。\"\"Nurse,inthatcaseyouwouldhavecuredme;buttheemperorisgivingmeinmarriagewhereatIamgrievouslyafflictedandsadbecausehewhopleasesmeisnephewofhimwhomIamtowed。Andifthismanhavehisjoyofme,thenhaveIlostmine;andthereisnomorejoytobelookedfor。