hadalwaysknownitwasnoniceway。Imusthavegonetosleepafterawhile，butwhenIwokeupIwasstillthinkingaboutit，andtosaveme，Icouldn’tquit。Allday，whereverIwent，thatquestionoffather’skeptgoingoverinmyhead。IthoughtaboutituntilIwasalmostcrazy，andIjustcouldn’tseewhereanythingaboutshamecamein。
Shewasonlymistaken。SheTHOUGHThelovedher，andhedidn’t。
Shenevercouldhavebeensobloomy，sofilledwithsong，laughter，andlovelylikeshewas，ifshehadn’ttrulybelievedwithallherheartthathelovedher。Ofcourseitwouldalmostfinishhertogivehimup，whenshefeltlikethat；andmaybeshedidwrongtoletherselfcaresomuch，beforeshewassureabouthim；butthatwouldonlybefoolish，therewouldn’tbeevenashadowofshameaboutit。Besides，Laddiehaddoneexactlythesamething。HelovedthePrincessuntilitnearlykilledhimwhenhethoughthehadtogiveherup，andhelovedherashardaseverhecould，whenhehadn’tanideawhethershewouldlovehimback，evenatinyspeck；andthepersonwhowasn’tfoolish，andneverwouldbe，wasLaddie。
ThemoreIthought，theworseIgotworkedup，andIcouldn’tseehowShelleywastoblameforanythingatall。Lovejustcametoher，likeitcametoLaddie。ShewouldhardlyhavekneltdownandbeseechedtheLordtomakeherfallinlovewithamanshescarcelyknew，andwhenshecouldn’tbesurewhathewasgoingtodoaboutit——nottheLord，theman，Imean。Youcouldseeforyourselfshewouldn’tdothat。Ifinishedmywork，andthenI
triedtodothingsforher，andshewouldn’tletme。MothertoldmetoaskhertomakeGraceGreenwoodthedressshehadpromisedwhenIwassosick；soItooktheScotchplaidtoherandremindedher，andshepushedmeawayandsaid：“Sometime！“