HowcouldItellherthatNate’sdeathwasthebestendthatcouldhavecometohim?ButIsaid:“Youknowyoudon’tthinkitwasyourfault。Youknowyouwoulddothesameagain。“Shelistenedtome,buthereyeshadnointerestinthem。“Heneverknewpain,“Ipursued,“andhedieddoingthethinghelikedbestintheworld。Hewashappyandenjoyinghimself,andyougavehimthat。It’sbadonlyforyou。Somewouldtalkreligion,butIcan’t。“
“Yes,“sheanswered,“Icanthinkofhimsogladtobefree。Thankyouforsayingthataboutreligion。Doyouthinkit’swickednottowantit——
tohateitsometimes?Ihopeit’snot。Thankyou,truly。“
Duringourjourneyshesummonedhercheerfulness,andallthatshesaidwaswholesome。Intherobust,coarsesoundnessofherfibre,thewoundsofgriefwouldhealandleavenosickness——perhapsnohighersensitivenesstohumansufferingsthanherbroadnativekindnessalreadyheld。Wetoucheduponreligionagain,andmyviewsshockedherKentuckynotions,forItoldherKentuckylockeditsreligioninanironcagecalledSunday,whichmadeitverysavageandfondofbitingstrangers。
NowandagainIwouldrunuponthatveinofdeep-seatedprejudicethatwasinhercharacterlikesomefinewire。Inshort,ourdisagreementsbroughtustotermsmorefamiliarthanwehadreachedhitherto。ButwhenatlastSeparcame,wherewasI?TherestoodMr。McLeanwaiting,andatthesuddennessofhimshehadnotimetorememberherself,butsteppedoutofthestagewithsuchasmilethattheardentcow-puncherflushedandbeamed。