Oh,whatacontrastdidO’Connoraffordashelayinalltheabjecthelplessnessofundisguisedterroruponhisdeath-bed,totheproudcomposurewithwhichhehadtakenthefieldthatmorning。Ihadalwaysbeforethoughtofdeathasofaquietsleepstealinggraduallyuponexhaustednature,madewelcomebysuffering,or,atleast,softenedbyresignation;
Ihadneverbeforestoodbythesideofoneuponwhomthehandofdeathhadbeenthussuddenlylaid;Ihadneverseenthetyrantarrayedinhisterrortillthen。
NeverbeforeorsincehaveIseenhorrorsointenselydepicted。ItseemedactuallyasifO’Connor’smindhadbeenunsettledbytheshock;thefewwordsheutteredweremarkedwithalltheincoherenceofdistraction;butitwasnotwordsthatmarkedhisdespairmoststrongly,theappallingandheart-sickeninggroansthatcamefromtheterror-strickenanddyingmanmusthauntmewhileI
live;theexpression,too,ofhopeless,imploringagonywithwhichheturnedhiseyesfromobjecttoobject,Icanneverforget。Atlength,appearingsuddenlytorecollecthimself,hesaid,withstartlingalertness,butinavoicesoalteredthatIscarcecouldrecognisethetones:
’Purcell,Purcell,goandtellmypoormother;shemustknowall,andthen,quick,quick,quick,callyouruncle,bringhimhere;Imusthaveachance。’Hemadeaviolentbutfruitlessefforttorise,andafteraslightpausecontinued,withdeepandurgentsolemnity:’Doctor,howlongshallIlive?Don’tflatterme。