Ifellbackonmyside，miserablydisappointedatmyfirstexperienceofmotherlyfeeling。
“Don’tworry，dear，“saidmymother，whohadinstalledherselfasnurse。“Why，you’vegotthefinestbabyintheworld。Youmustn’texciteyourself；butgiveyourwholemindnowtoturningyourselfasmuchaspossibleintoananimal，amilchcow，pasturinginthemeadow。“
Ifellasleepthen，fullyresolvedtoletnaturehaveherway。
Ah!mysweet，howheavenlyitwastowakenupfromallthepainandhazinessofthefirstdays，wheneverythingwasstilldim，uncomfortable，confused。Arayoflightpiercedthedarkness；myheartandsoul，myinnerself——aselfIhadneverknownbefore——renttheenvelopeofgloomysuffering，asaflowerburstsitssheathatthefirstwarmkissofthesun，atthemomentwhenthelittlewretchfastenedonmybreastandsucked。Noteventhesensationofthechild’sfirstcrywassoexquisiteasthis。Thisisthedawnofmotherhood，thisisthe/Fiatlux/!
Hereishappiness，joyineffable，thoughitcomesnotwithoutpangs。