Sowiththisconsciousnessshehadearlydeterminedthatherbeautyshouldmakeheralady;therankshecovetedthemoreforherfather’sabusetheranktowhichshefirmlybelievedherlostAuntEstherhadarrived。Now,whileaservantmustoftendrudgeandbedirty,mustbeknownasherservantbyallwhovisitedathermaster’shouse,adressmaker’sapprenticemustorsoMarythoughtbealwaysdressedwithacertainregardtoappearance;
mustneversoilherhands,andneedneverreddenordirtyherfacewithhardlabour。BeforemytellingyousotrulywhatfollyMaryfeltorthought,injuresherwithoutredemptioninyouropinion,thinkwhatarethesillyfanciesofsixteenyearsofageineveryclass,andunderallcircumstances。
Theendofallthethoughtsoffatheranddaughterwas,asIsaidbefore,Marywastobeadressmaker;andherambitionpromptedherunwillingfathertoapplyatallthefirstestablishments,toknowonwhattermsofpainstakingandzealhisdaughtermightbeadmittedintoeversohumbleaworkwoman’ssituation。Buthighpremiumswereaskedatall;poorman!hemighthaveknownthatwithoutgivingupaday’sworktoascertainthefact。Hewouldhavebeenindignant,indeed,hadheknownthatifMaryhadaccompaniedhim,thecasemighthavebeenratherdifferent,asherbeautywouldhavemadeherdesirableasashow-woman。Thenhetriedsecond-rateplaces;atallthepaymentofasumofmoneywasnecessary,andmoneyhehadnone。
Disheartenedandangryhewenthomeatnight,declaringitwastimelost;
thatdressmakingwasatalleventsatroublesomebusiness,andnotworthlearning。Marysawthatthegrapesweresour,andthenextdayshesetoutherself,asherfathercouldnotaffordtoloseanotherday’swork;