WhatmotherthoughtIcannottell;andindeedIdoubtifshethoughtatallformorethanhalfanhour,butonlymanagedtoholdmetight,andcry,andthankGodnowandthen,butwithsomefearofHistakingme,ifsheshouldbetoograteful。Moreovershethoughtitwasmyowndoing,andIoughttohavethecreditofit,andsheevencamedownverysharplyuponJohn’swife,Mrs。Fry,forsayingthatwemustnotbetooproud,forallofitwastheLord’sdoing。However,dearmotherwasashamedofthatafterwards,andaskedMrs。Fry’shumblepardon;andperhapsIoughtnottohavementionedit。
OldSmilerhadtoldthemthatIwascoming——alltherest,Imean,exceptAnnie——forhavingescapedfromhishalter-ring,hewascomeouttograzeinthelaneabit;whenwhatshouldheseebutastrangehorsecomingwithyoungmasterandmistressuponhim,forAnniemustneedsgetupbehindme,therebeingonlysheeptolookather。ThenSmilergaveusastareandaneigh,withhistailquitestiffwithamazement,andthenwhetherinjoyorthroughindignationheflunguphishindfeetandgallopedstraighthome,andseteverydogwildwithbarking。
Now,methinks,quiteenoughhasbeensaidconcerningthismightyreturnoftheyoungJohnRiddwhichwasknownupatCosgatethatevening,andfeelingthatI
cannotdescribeit,howcanIhopethatanyoneelsewilllabourtoimagineit,evenofthefewwhoareable?Forveryfewcanhavetravelledsofar,unlessindeedtheywhosetradeitis,orveryunsettledpeople。Andevenofthosewhohavedoneso,notoneinahundredcanhavesuchahomeasIhadtocomehometo。
Motherweptagain,withgriefandsomewrath,andsodidAnniealso,andevenlittleEliza,andallwereunsettledinloyalty,andtalkedaboutarepublic,whenItoldthemhowIhadbeenleftwithoutmoneyfortravellinghomeward,andexpectedtohavetobegmyway,whichFarmerSnowewouldhaveheardof。AndthoughIcouldseetheyweredisappointedatmyfailureofanypromotion,theyalldeclaredhowgladtheywere,andhowmuchbettertheylikedmetobenomorethanwhattheywereaccustomedto。Atleast,mymotherandAnniesaidso,withoutwaitingtohearanymore;butLizziedidnotanswertoit,untilIhadopenedmybagandshownthebeautifulpresentIhadforher。Andthenshekissedme,almostlikeAnnie,andvowedthatshethoughtverylittleofcaptains。