grewshame-facedaboutthematter,andfearedtoencounteralooking-glass。Butmotherwasveryproud,andsaidshenevercouldhavetoomuchofme。
Theworstofalltomakemeashamedofbearingmyheadsohigh——athingIsawnowaytohelp,forInevercouldhangmychindown,andmybackwaslikeagatepostwheneverItriedtobendit——theworstofallwasourlittleEliza,whonevercouldcometoasizeherself,thoughshehadthewinefromtheSacramentatEasterandAllhallowmas,onlytobesmallandskinny,sharp,andclevercrookedly。Notthatherbodywasoutofthestraightbeingtoosmallforthatperhaps,butthatherwitwasfullofcorners,jagged,andstrange,anduncomfortable。Younevercouldtellwhatshemightsaynext;andIlikenotthatkindofwomen。NowGodforgivemefortalkingsoofmyownfather’sdaughter,andsomuchthemorebyreasonthatmyfathercouldnothelpit。Therightwayistofacethematter,andthenbesorryforeveryone。Mymotherfellgrievouslyonaslide,whichJohnFryhadmadenightheapple-roomdoor,andhiddenwithstrawfromthestable,tocoverhisowngreatidleness。MyfatherlaidJohn’snoseontheice,andkepthimwarminspiteofit;butitwastoolateforEliza。Shewasbornnextdaywithmoremindthanbody——theworstthingthatcanbefallaman。
ButAnnie,myothersister,wasnowafinefairgirl,beautifultobehold。Icouldlookatherbythefireside,foranhourtogether,whenIwasnottoosleepy,andthinkofmydearfather。Andshewoulddothesamethingbyme,onlywaitthebetweenoftheblazes。Herhairwasdoneupinaknotbehind,butsomewouldfalloverhershoulders;andthedancingofthelightwassweettoseethroughaman’seyelashes。
Thereneverwasafacethatshowedthelightortheshadowoffeeling,asiftheheartweresuntoit,morethanourdearAnnie’sdid。Tolookathercarefully,youmightthinkthatshewasnotdwellingonanything;
andthenshewouldknowyouwerelookingather,andthoseeyeswouldtellallaboutit。GodknowsthatI