“OfmydearSavinien,“criedthegirl,burstingintotears。“Yes,mygoodfriend,“shesaid,sobbing,“avoicetellsmeheisasnobleinheartasheisinrace。Hehasnotonlytoldmethathelovesmealone,buthehasproveditinahundreddelicateways,andbyrestrainingheroicallyhisardentfeelings。LatelywhenhetookthehandIheldouttohim,thateveningwhenMonsieurBongrandproposedtomeahusband,itwasthefirsttime,Isweartoyou,thatIhadevergivenit。Hebeganwithajestwhenheblewmeakissacrossthestreet,butsincethenouraffectionhasneveroutwardlypassed,asyouwellknow,thenarrowestlimits。ButIwilltellyou,——youwhoreadmysoulexceptinthisoneregionwherenonebuttheangelssee,——well,Iwilltellyou,thislovehasbeeninmethesecretspringofmanyseemingmerits;itmademeacceptmypoverty;itsoftenedthebitternessofmyirreparableloss,formymourningismoreperhapsinmyclothesnowthaninmyheart——Oh,wasIwrong?canitbethatlovewasstrongerinmethanmygratitudetomybenefactor,andGodhaspunishedmeforit?Buthowcoulditbeotherwise?IrespectedinmyselfSavinien’sfuturewife;yes,perhapsIwastooproud,perhapsitisthatpridewhichGodhashumbled。Godalone,asyouhaveoftentoldme,shouldbetheendandobjectofallouractions。“
Theabbewasdeeplytouchedashewatchedthetearsrolldownherpallidface。Thehigherhersenseofsecurityhadbeen,thelowershewasnowtofall。
“But,“shesaid,continuing,“ifIreturntomyorphanedcondition,I
shallknowhowtotakeupitsfeelings。Afterall,couldIhavetiedamill-stoneroundtheneckofhimIlove?Whatcanhedohere?WhoamI
tobindhimtome?Besides,doInotlovehimwithafriendshipsodivinethatIcanbearthelossofmyownhappinessandmyhopes?YouknowIhaveoftenblamedmyselfforlettingmyhopesrestuponagrave,andforknowingtheywerewaitingonthatpooroldlady’sdeath。IfSavinienisrichandhappywithanotherIhaveenoughtopayformyentrancetoaconvent,whereIshallgoatonce。Therecannomorebetwolovesinawoman’sheartthantherecanbetwomastersinheaven,andthelifeofareligiousisattractivetome。“