“Ibegintogetaglimmeringofwhatyoumean，“saidEast。
“Isay，now，“saidTomeagerly，“doyourememberhowwebothhatedFlashman？“
“OfcourseIdo，“saidEast；“Ihatehimstill。Whatthen？“
“Well，whenIcametotaketheSacrament，Ihadagreatstruggleaboutthat。Itriedtoputhimoutofmyhead；andwhenI
couldn’tdothat，Itriedtothinkofhimasevil——assomethingthattheLordwhowaslovingmehated，andwhichImighthatetoo。Butitwouldn’tdo。Ibrokedown；IbelieveChristHimselfbrokemedown。AndwhentheDoctorgavemethebreadandwine，andleantovermepraying，IprayedforpoorFlashman，asifithadbeenyouorArthur。“