Themorningwashot,andtheexerciseofreadinglefthermindcontractingandexpandinglikethemain-springofaclock,andthesmallnoisesofmidday,whichonecanascribetonodefinitecause,inaregularrhythm。Itwasallveryreal,verybig,veryimpersonal,andafteramomentortwoshebegantoraiseherfirstfingerandtoletitfallonthearmofherchairsoastobringbacktoherselfsomeconsciousnessofherownexistence。
Shewasnextovercomebytheunspeakablequeernessofthefactthatsheshouldbesittinginanarm-chair,inthemorning,inthemiddleoftheworld。Whowerethepeoplemovinginthehouse——
movingthingsfromoneplacetoanother?Andlife,whatwasthat?
Itwasonlyalightpassingoverthesurfaceandvanishing,asintimeshewouldvanish,thoughthefurnitureintheroomwouldremain。Herdissolutionbecamesocompletethatshecouldnotraiseherfingeranymore,andsatperfectlystill,listeningandlookingalwaysatthesamespot。Itbecamestrangerandstranger。Shewasovercomewithawethatthingsshouldexistatall……Sheforgotthatshehadanyfingerstoraise……Thethingsthatexistedweresoimmenseandsodesolate……Shecontinuedtobeconsciousofthesevastmassesofsubstanceforalongstretchoftime,theclockstilltickinginthemidstoftheuniversalsilence。
“Comein,“shesaidmechanically,forastringinherbrainseemedtobepulledbyapersistentknockingatthedoor。Withgreatslownessthedooropenedandatallhumanbeingcametowardsher,holdingoutherarmandsaying: