Butthoughthetotalwantofsensibilitytopersonalinjury,topersonaldangeranddistress,would,insuchsituations,takeawaythewholemeritofself-command,thatsensibility,however,mayveryeasilybetooexquisite,anditfrequentlyisso。Whenthesenseofpropriety,whentheauthorityofthejudgewithinthebreast,cancontrolthisextremesensibility,thatauthoritymustnodoubtappearverynobleandverygreat。Buttheexertionofitmaybetoofatiguing;itmayhavetoomuchtodo。Theindividual,byagreateffort,maybehaveperfectlywell。Butthecontestbetweenthetwoprinciples,thewarfarewithinthebreast,maybetooviolenttobeatallconsistentwithinternaltranquillityandhappiness。ThewisemanwhomNaturehasendowedwiththistooexquisitesensibility,andwhosetoolivelyfeelingshavenotbeensufficientlybluntedandhardenedbyearlyeducationandproperexercise,willavoid,asmuchasdutyandproprietywillpermit,thesituationsforwhichheisnotperfectlyfitted。Themanwhosefeebleanddelicateconstitutionrendershimtoosensibletopain,tohardship,andtoeverysortofbodilydistress,shouldnotwantonlyembracetheprofessionofasoldier。Themanoftoomuchsensibilitytoinjury,shouldnotrashlyengageinthecontestsoffaction。Thoughthesenseofproprietyshouldbestrongenoughtocommandallthosesensibilities,thecomposureofthemindmustalwaysbedisturbedinthestruggle。Inthisdisorderthejudgmentcannotalwaysmaintainitsordinaryacutenessandprecision;andthoughhemayalwaysmeantoactproperly,hemayoftenactrashlyandimprudently,andinamannerwhichhehimselfwill,inthesucceedingpartofhislife,beforeverashamedof。Acertainintrepidity,acertainfirmnessofnervesandhardinessofconstitution,whethernaturaloracquired,areundoubtedlythebestpreparativesforallthegreatexertionsofself-command。
Thoughwarandfactionarecertainlythebestschoolsforformingeverymantothishardinessandfirmnessoftemper,thoughtheyarethebestremediesforcuringhimoftheoppositeweaknesses,yet,ifthedayoftrialshouldhappentocomebeforehehascompletelylearnedhislesson,beforetheremedyhashadtimetoproduceitspropereffect,theconsequencesmightnotbeagreeable。
Oursensibilitytothepleasures,totheamusementsandenjoymentsofhumanlife,mayoffend,inthesamemanner,eitherbyitsexcessorbyitsdefect。Ofthetwo,however,theexcessseemslessdisagreeablethanthedefect。Bothtothespectatorandtothepersonprincipallyconcerned,astrongpropensitytojoyiscertainlymorepleasingthanadullinsensibilitytotheobjectsofamusementanddiversion。Wearecharmedwiththegaietyofyouth,andevenwiththeplayfulnessofchildhood:butwesoongrowwearyoftheflatandtastelessgravitywhichtoofrequentlyaccompaniesoldage。Whenthispropensity,indeed,isnotrestrainedbythesenseofpropriety,whenitisunsuitabletothetimeortotheplace,totheageortothesituationoftheperson,when,toindulgeit,heneglectseitherhisinterestorhisduty;itisjustlyblamedasexcessive,andashurtfulbothtotheindividualandtothesociety。Inthegreaterpartofsuchcases,however,whatischieflytobefoundfaultwithis,notsomuchthestrengthofthepropensitytojoy,astheweaknessofthesenseofproprietyandduty。Ayoungmanwhohasnorelishforthediversionsandamusementsthatarenaturalandsuitabletohisage,whotalksofnothingbuthisbookorhisbusiness,isdislikedasformalandpedantic;andwegivehimnocreditforhisabstinenceevenfromimproperindulgences,towhichheseemstohavesolittleinclination。
Theprincipleofself-estimationmaybetoohigh,anditmaylikewisebetoolow。Itissoveryagreeabletothinkhighly,andsoverydisagreeabletothinkmeanlyofourselves,that,tothepersonhimself,itcannotwellbedoubted,butthatsomedegreeofexcessmustbemuchlessdisagreeablethananydegreeofdefect。Buttotheimpartialspectator,itmayperhapsbethought,thingsmustappearquitedifferently,andthattohim,thedefectmustalwaysbelessdisagreeablethantheexcess。Andinourcompanions,nodoubt,wemuchmorefrequentlycomplainofthelatterthanoftheformer。Whentheyassumeuponus,orsetthemselvesbeforeus,theirself-estimationmortifiesourown。
Ourownprideandvanitypromptustoaccusethemofprideandvanity,andweceasetobetheimpartialspectatorsoftheirconduct。Whenthesamecompanions,however,sufferanyothermantoassumeoverthemasuperioritywhichdoesnotbelongtohim,wenotonlyblamethem,butoftendespisethemasmean-spirited。