mymindaboutdiscoveringmyselftomybrother，formerly
myhusband，thatIcouldnotwithstandthem；andtherather，
becauseitranconstantlyinmythoughts，thatifIdidnotdo
itwhilehelived，Imightinvainendeavourtoconvincemy
sonafterwardthatIwasreallythesameperson，andthatIwas