Shesatecommonlywithherfather,whowasveryproudofherwit,andheardthetalkofmanyofhiswildcompanions——oftenbutill-suitedforagirltohear。Butsheneverhadbeenagirl,shesaid;shehadbeenawomansinceshewaseightyearsold。Oh,whydidMissPinkertonletsuchadangerousbirdintohercage?
Thefactis,theoldladybelievedRebeccatobethemeekestcreatureintheworld,soadmirably,ontheoccasionswhenherfatherbroughthertoChiswick,usedRebeccatoperformthepartoftheingenue;andonlyayearbeforethearrangementbywhichRebeccahadbeenadmittedintoherhouse,andwhenRebeccawassixteenyearsold,MissPinkertonmajestically,andwithalittlespeech,madeherapresentofadoll——whichwas,bytheway,theconfiscatedpropertyofMissSwindle,discoveredsurreptitiouslynursingitinschool-hours。Howthefatheranddaughterlaughedastheytrudgedhometogetheraftertheeveningpartyitwasontheoccasionofthespeeches,whenalltheprofessorswereinvitedandhowMissPinkertonwouldhaveragedhadsheseenthecaricatureofherselfwhichthelittlemimic,Rebecca,managedtomakeoutofherdoll。Beckyusedtogothroughdialogueswithit;itformedthedelightofNewmanStreet,GerrardStreet,andtheArtists’quarter:
andtheyoungpainters,whentheycametotaketheirgin-
and-waterwiththeirlazy,dissolute,clever,jovialsenior,usedregularlytoaskRebeccaifMissPinkertonwasathome:shewasaswellknowntothem,poorsoul!asMr。LawrenceorPresidentWest。OnceRebeccahadthehonourtopassafewdaysatChiswick;afterwhichshebroughtbackJemima,anderectedanotherdollasMissJemmy:forthoughthathonestcreaturehadmadeandgivenherjellyandcakeenoughforthreechildren,andaseven-shillingpieceatparting,thegirl’ssenseofridiculewasfarstrongerthanhergratitude,andshesacrificedMissJemmyquiteaspitilesslyashersister。
Thecatastrophecame,andshewasbroughttotheMallastoherhome。Therigidformalityoftheplacesuffocatedher:theprayersandthemeals,thelessonsandthewalks,whichwerearrangedwithaconventualregularity,oppressedheralmostbeyondendurance;andshelookedbacktothefreedomandthebeggaryoftheoldstudioinSohowithsomuchregret,thateverybody,herselfincluded,fanciedshewasconsumedwithgriefforherfather。Shehadalittleroominthegarret,wherethemaidsheardherwalkingandsobbingatnight;butitwaswithrage,andnotwithgrief。Shehadnotbeenmuchofadissembler,untilnowherlonelinesstaughthertofeign。Shehadnevermingledinthesocietyofwomen: