Shemadenoanswer。Shewalkedacrosstheroomtothepianoandbegantoplay,rathernoisilyandrapidly,withoddgustsofemphasis,theshepherd’spipemusicfromthelastactin“TristanandIsolde。”Presentlyshemissedanote,failedagain,ranherfingerheavilyupthescale,struckthepianopassionatelywithherfist,makingafeeblejarinthetreble,jumpedup,andwentoutoftheroom。
Thenursefoundmestillwearingmyhelmetofbandages,partiallydressed,andpotteringroundtheroomtofindtherestofmyclothes。IwasinastateofexasperatedhungerforBeatrice,andIwastooinflamedandweakenedtoconcealthestateofmymind。Iwasfeeblyangrybecauseoftheirritationofdressing,andparticularlyofthestruggletoputonmytrouserswithoutbeingabletoseemylegs。Iwasstaggeringabout,andonceI
hadfallenoverachairandIhadupsetthejarofMichaelmasdaisies。
Imusthavebeenadetestablespectacle。“I’llgobacktobed。”
saidI,“ifImayhaveawordwithMissBeatrice。I’vegotsomethingtosaytoher。That’swhyI’mdressing。”