`No；butIdon’twanttolullyoutofalsesecurity。Ifaconsciousnessoftheuncertaintyoflifecandisposeyoutoseriousandusefulthoughts，Iwouldnotdepriveyouofthebenefitofsuchreflections，whetheryoudoeventuallyrecoverornot。Doestheideaofdeathappalyouverymuch？’
`It’sjusttheonlythingIcan’tbeartothinkof；soifyou’veany——’
`Butitmustcomesometime，’interruptedI；`andifitbeyearshence，itwillascertainlyovertakeyouasifitcameto-day，——andnodoubtbeasunwelcomethenasnow，unlessyou——’
`Oh，hangit！don’ttormentmewithyourpreachmentsnow，unlessyouwanttokillmeoutright——Ican’tstandit，Itellyou——I’vesufferingsenoughwithoutthat。Ifyouthinkthere’sdanger，savemefromit；andthen，ingratitude，I’llhearwhateveryouliketosay。’
Iaccordinglydroppedtheunwelcometopic。Andnow，Frederick，IthinkImaybringmylettertoaclose。Fromthesedetails，youmayformyourownjudgmentofthestateofmypatient，andofmyownpositionandfutureprospects。Letmehearfromyousoon，andIwillwriteagaintotellyouhowwegeton；butnowthatmypresenceistolerated——andevenrequiredinthesick-room，Ishallhavebutlittletimetosparebetweenmyhusbandandmyson，——forImustnotentirelyneglectthelatter：itwouldnotdotokeephimalwayswithRachel，andIdarenotleavehimforamomentwithanyoftheotherservants，orsufferhimtobealone，lestheshouldmeetthem。Ifhisfathergetworse，IshallaskEstherHargravetotakechargeofhimforatime，tillIhavere-organizedthehouseholdatleast；butIgreatlypreferkeepinghimundermyowneye。