Butthenitisabittertrialtobeholdhim,onhisreturn,doinghisutmosttosubvertmylaboursandtransformmyinnocent,affectionate,tractabledarlingintoaselfish,disobedient,andmischievousboy;therebypreparingthesoilforthoseviceshehassosuccessfullycultivatedinhisownpervertednature。
Happily,therewerenoneofArthur’s`friends’invitedtoGrassdalelastautumn:hetookhimselfofftovisitsomeoftheminstead。Iwishhewouldalwaysdoso,andIwishhisfriendswerenumerousandlovingenoughtokeephimamongstthemalltheyearround。Mr。Hargrave,considerablytomyannoyance,didnotgowithhim;butIthinkIhavedonewiththatgentlemanatlast。
Forsevenoreightmonths,hebehavedsoremarkablywell,andmanagedsoskilfullytoo,thatIwasalmostcompletelyoffmyguard,andwasreallybeginningtolookuponhimasafriend,andeventotreathimassuch,withcertainprudentrestrictionswhichIdeemedscarcelynecessary;
when,presuminguponmyunsuspectingkindness,hethoughthemightventuretooversteptheboundsofdecentmoderationandproprietythathadsolongretainedhim。ItwasonapleasanteveningatthecloseofMay:Iwaswanderinginthepark,andhe,onseeingmethereasherodepast,madeboldtoenterandapproachme,dismountingandleavinghishorseatthegate。ThiswasthefirsttimehehadventuredtocomewithinitsinclosuresinceIhadbeenleftalone,withoutthesanctionofhismother’sorsister’scompany,oratleasttheexcuseofamessagefromthem。Buthemanagedtoappearsocalmandeasy,sorespectfulandself-possessedinhisfriendliness,that,thoughalittlesurprised,Iwasneitheralarmednoroffendedattheunusualliberty,andhewalkedwithmeundertheashtreesandbythewater-side,andtalked,withconsiderableanimation,goodtaste,andintelligence,onmanysubjects,beforeIbegantothinkaboutgettingridofhim。Then,afterapause,duringwhichwebothstoodgazingonthecalm,bluewater;
Irevolvinginmymindthebestmeansofpolitelydismissingmycompanion,he,nodoubt,ponderingothermattersequallyalientothesweetsightsandsoundsthatalonewerepresenttohissenses,——hesuddenlyelectrifiedmebybeginning,inapeculiartone,low,soft,butperfectlydistinct,topourforththemostunequivocalexpressionsofearnestandpassionatelove;pleadinghiscausewithalltheboldyetartfuleloquencehecouldsummontohisaid。ButIcutshorthisappeal,andrepulsedhimsodeterminately,sodecidedly,andwithsuchamixtureofscornfulindignationtemperedwithcool,dispassionatesorrowandpityforhisbenightedmind,thathewithdrew,astonished,mortified,anddiscomforted;and,afewdaysafter,IheardthathehaddepartedforLondon。Hereturnedhoweverineightornineweeks——anddidnotentirelykeepalooffromme,butcomportedhimselfinsoremarkableamannerthathisquick-sightedsistercouldnotfailtonoticethechange。