discoveraretobedepictedtomeethiseye，orstoredinmymemorytobetoldhimatsomefutureperiod。This，atleast，isthehopethatIcherish，thefancythatlightsmeonmylonelyway。Itmaybeonlyanignisfatuus，afterall，butitcandonoharmtofollowitwithmyeyesandrejoiceinitslustre，aslongasitdoesnotluremefromthepathIoughttokeep；andIthinkitwillnot，forIhavethoughtdeeplyonmyaunt’sadvice，andIseeclearly，now，thefollyofthrowingmyselfawayononethatisunworthyofalltheloveIhavetogive，andincapableofrespondingtothebestanddeepestfeelingsofmyinmostheart——soclearlythatevenifIshouldseehimagain，andifheshouldremembermeandlovemestillwhich，alas！istoolittleprobable，consideringhowheissituated，andbywhomsurrounded，andifheshouldaskmetomarryhim，——IamdeterminednottoconsentuntilIknowforcertainwhethermyaunt’sopinionofhimormineisnearestthetruth；forifmineisaltogetherwrong，itisnothethatIlove；itisacreatureofmyownimagination。ButIthinkitisnotwrong——no，no——thereisasecretsomething——aninwardinstinctthatassuresmeIamright。Thereisessentialgoodnessinhim；——andwhatdelighttounfoldit！Ifhehaswandered，whatblisstorecallhim！Ifheisnowexposedtothebanefulinfluenceofcorruptingandwickedcompanions，whatglorytodeliverhimfromthem！——Oh！ifIcouldbutbelievethatHeavenhasdesignedmeforthis！
To-dayisthefirstofSeptember；butmyunclehasorderedthegamekeepertosparethepartridgestillthegentlemencome。`Whatgentlemen？’
Iasked，whenIheardit——asmallpartyhehadinvitedtoshoot。HisfriendMrWilmotwasone，andmyaunt’sfriendMrBoarhamanother。Thisstruckmeasterriblenews，atthemoment，butallregretandapprehensionvanishedlikeadreamwhenIheardthatMrHuntingdonwasactuallytobeathird！
Myauntisgreatlyagainsthiscoming，ofcourse：sheearnestlyendeavouredtodissuademyunclefromaskinghim；buthe，laughingatherobjections，toldheritwasnousetalkingforthemischiefwasalreadydone：hehadinvitedHuntingdonandhisfriendLordLowboroughbeforeweleftLondon，andnothingnowremainedbuttothedayfortheircoming。Soheissafe，andIamsureofseeinghim。Icannotexpressmyjoy——Ifinditverydifficulttoconcealitfrommyaunt；butIdon’twishtotroubleherwithmyfeelingstillIknowwhetherIoughttoindulgethemornot。IfIfinditmyabsolutedutytosuppressthem，theyshalltroublenoonebutmyself；andifIcanreallyfeelmyselfjustifiedinindulgingthisattachment，Icandareanything，eventheangerandgriefofmybestfriend，foritsobject——surely，Ishallsoonknow。Buttheyarenotcomingtillaboutthemiddleofthemonth。
Wearetohavetwoladyvisitorsalso：MrWilmotistobringhisnieceandhercousinMilicent。Isupposemyauntthinksthelatterwillbenefitmebyhersocietyandthesalutaryexampleofhergentledeportment，andlowlyandtractablespirit；andtheformer，Isuspect，sheintendsasaspeciesofcounter-attractiontowinMrHuntingdon’sattentionfromme。Idon’tthankherforthis；butIshallbegladofMilicent’scompany：