housestood,atthetailofamuddycab-rank,ontheshoresofawidethoroughfareofmud,offeringtofancyafaceofambiguousinvitation。Imightbereceived,Imightoncemorefillmybellythere;ontheotherhand,itwasperhapsthisdaytheboltwasdestinedtofall,andImightbeexpelledinstead,withvulgarhubbub。Itwaspolicytomaketheattempt,andI
knewitwaspolicy;butIhadalready,inthecourseofthatonemorning,enduredtoomanyaffronts,andIfeltIcouldratherstarvethanfaceanother。Ihadcourageandtospareforthefuture,noneleftforthatday;courageforthemaincampaign,butnotasparkofitforthatpreliminaryskirmishofthecabman’srestaurant。Icontinuedaccordinglytosituponmybench,notfarfromtheashesofNapoleon,nowdrowsy,nowlight-headed,nowincompletementalobstruction,oronlyconsciousofananimalpleasureinquiescence;andnowthinking,planning,andrememberingwithunexampledclearness,tellingmyselftalesofsuddenwealth,andgustfullyorderingandgreedilyconsumingimaginarymeals:inthecourseofwhichImusthavedroppedasleep。
ItwastowardsdarkthatIwassuddenlyrecalledtofaminebyacoldsouseofrain,andsprangshiveringtomyfeet。ForamomentIstoodbewildered:thewholetrainofmyreasoninganddreamingpassedafreshthroughmymind;Iwasagaintempted,drawnasifwithcords,bytheimageofthecabman’seating-house,andagainrecoiledfromthepossibilityofinsult。
“Quidortdine。”thoughtItomyself;andtookmyhomewardwaywithwaveringfootsteps,throughrainystreetsinwhichthelampsandtheshop-windowsnowbegantogleam;stillmarshallingimaginarydinnersasIwent。
“Ah,MonsieurDodd。”saidtheporter,“therehasbeenaregisteredletterforyou。Thefacteurwillbringitagainto-morrow。”