“Willyoupouritout,please?Do。”shesaid,leaningbackinherchair,andplacingherhandaboveherforehead,whileheralmondeyes——thoselongeyessocommontotheangeliclegionsofearlyItalianart——becamelonger,andhervoicemorelanguishing。Sheshowedthatoblique-manneredsoftnesswhichisperhapsmostfrequentinwomenofdarkercomplexionandmorelymphatictemperamentthanMrs。Charmond’swas;wholingeringlysmiletheirmeaningstomenratherthanspeakthem,whoinveigleratherthanprompt,andtakeadvantageofcurrentsratherthansteer。
“IamthemostinactivewomanwhenIamhere。”shesaid。“IthinksometimesIwasborntoliveanddonothing,nothing,nothingbutfloatabout,aswefancywedosometimesindreams。Butthatcannotbereallymydestiny,andImuststruggleagainstsuchfancies。”
“Iamsosorryyoudonotenjoyexertion——itisquitesad!IwishIcouldtendyouandmakeyouveryhappy。”
Therewassomethingsosympathetic,soappreciative,inthesoundofGrace’svoice,thatitimpelledpeopletoplayhavocwiththeircustomaryreservationsintalkingtoher。“Itistenderandkindofyoutofeelthat。”saidMrs。Charmond。“PerhapsIhavegivenyouthenotionthatmylanguorismorethanitreallyis。Butthisplaceoppressesme,andIhaveaplanofgoingabroadagooddeal。Iusedtogowitharelative,butthatarrangementhasdroppedthrough。”RegardingGracewithafinalglanceofcriticism,sheseemedtomakeuphermindtoconsidertheyounggirlsatisfactory,andcontinued:“NowIamoftenimpelledtorecordmyimpressionsoftimesandplaces。Ihaveoftenthoughtofwritinga’NewSentimentalJourney。’ButIcannotfindenergyenoughtodoitalone。WhenIamatdifferentplacesinthesouthofEuropeIfeelacrowdofideasandfanciesthronginguponmecontinually,buttounfoldwriting-materials,takeupacoldsteelpen,andputtheseimpressionsdownsystematicallyoncold,smoothpaper——thatIcannotdo。SoIhavethoughtthatifIalwayscouldhavesomebodyatmyelbowwithwhomIaminsympathy,Imightdictateanyideasthatcomeintomyhead。AnddirectlyIhadmadeyouracquaintancetheotherdayitstruckmethatyouwouldsuitmesowell。Wouldyouliketoundertakeit?Youmightreadtome,too,ifdesirable。Willyouthinkitover,andaskyourparentsiftheyarewilling?”
“Ohyes。”saidGrace。“Iamalmostsuretheywouldbeveryglad。”