HehadcrossedhisRubicon——notperhapsveryheroicallyordramatically,butthenitisonlyindramasthatpeopleactdramatically。Atanyrate,byhookorbycrook,hehadscrambledover,andwasoutupontheotherside。Alreadyhethoughtofmuchwhichhewouldgladlyhavesaid,andblamedhiswantofpresenceofmind;but,afterall,itmatteredverylittle。Inclinedthoughhewastomakeverygreatallowancesforhisfatherandmother,hewasindignantattheirhavingthrustthemselvesuponhimwithoutwarningatamomentwhentheexcitementofleavingprisonwasalreadyasmuchashewasfitfor。Itwasameanadvantagetohavetakenoverhim,buthewasgladtheyhadtakenit,foritmadehimrealisemorefullythaneverthathisonechancelayinseparatinghimselfcompletelyfromthem。
Themorningwasgrey,andthefirstsignsofwinterfogwerebeginningtoshowthemselves,foritwasnowthe30thofSeptember。
Ernestworetheclothesinwhichhehadenteredprison,andwasthereforedressedasaclergyman。Noonewholookedathimwouldhaveseenanydifferencebetweenhispresentappearanceandhisappearancesixmonthspreviously;indeed,ashewalkedslowlythroughthedingycrowdedlanecalledEyreStreetHillwhichhewellknew,forhehadclericalfriendsinthatneighbourhood,themonthshehadpassedinprisonseemedtodropoutofhislife,andsopowerfullydidassociationcarryhimawaythat,findinghimselfinhisolddressandinhisoldsurroundings,hefeltdraggedbackintohisoldself——asthoughhissixmonthsofprisonlifehadbeenadreamfromwhichhewasnowwakingtotakethingsupashehadleftthem。Thiswastheeffectofunchangedsurroundingsupontheunchangedpartofhim。Buttherewasachangedpart,andtheeffectofunchangedsurroundingsuponthiswastomakeeverythingseemalmostasstrangeasthoughhehadneverhadanylifebuthisprisonone,andwasnowbornintoanewworld。
Allourliveslong,everydayandeveryhour,weareengagedintheprocessofaccommodatingourchangedandunchangedselvestochangedandunchangedsurroundings;living,infact,innothingelsethanthisprocessofaccommodation;whenwefailinitalittlewearestupid,whenwefailflagrantlywearemad,whenwesuspendittemporarilywesleep,whenwegiveuptheattemptaltogetherwedie。
Inquiet,uneventfullivesthechangesinternalandexternalaresosmallthatthereislittleornostrainintheprocessoffusionandaccommodation;inotherlivesthereisgreatstrain,butthereisalsogreatfusingandaccommodatingpower;inothersgreatstrainwithlittleaccommodatingpower。Alifewillbesuccessfulornotaccordingasthepowerofaccommodationisequaltoorunequaltothestrainoffusingandadjustinginternalandexternalchanges。