Overandoveragainhadshewheedledfromhimallshewantedtoknow,andafterwardsgothimintothemosthorriblescrapebytellingthewholetoTheobald。Ernesthadremonstratedmorethanonceupontheseoccasions,andhadpointedouttohismotherhowdisastroustohimhisconfidenceshadbeen,butChristinahadalwaysjoinedissuewithhimandshowedhimintheclearestpossiblemannerthatineachcaseshehadbeenright,andthathecouldnotreasonablycomplain。Generallyitwasherconsciencethatforbadehertobesilent,andagainstthistherewasnoappeal,forweareallboundtofollowthedictatesofourconscience。Ernestusedtohavetoreciteahymnaboutconscience。Itwastotheeffectthatifyoudidnotpayattentiontoitsvoiceitwouldsoonleaveoffspeaking。“Mymamma’sconsciencehasnotleftoffspeaking。”saidErnesttooneofhischumsatRoughborough;“it’salwaysjabbering。”
Whenaboyhasoncespokensodisrespectfullyasthisabouthismother’sconscienceitispracticallyalloverbetweenhimandher。
Ernestthroughsheerforceofhabit,ofthesofa,andofthereturnoftheassociatedideas,wasstillsomovedbythesiren’svoiceastoyearntosailtowardsher,andflinghimselfintoherarms,butitwouldnotdo;therewereotherassociatedideasthatreturnedalso,andthemangledbonesoftoomanymurderedconfessionswerelyingwhiteningroundtheskirtsofhismother’sdress,toallowhimbyanypossibilitytotrustherfurther。Sohehunghisheadandlookedsheepish,butkepthisowncounsel。
“Isee,mydearest。”continuedhismother,“eitherthatIammistaken,andthatthereisnothingonyourmind,orthatyouwillnotunburdenyourselftome:butoh,Ernest,tellmeatleastthismuch;istherenothingthatyourepentof,nothingwhichmakesyouunhappyinconnectionwiththatmiserablegirlEllen?”
Ernest’sheartfailedhim。“Iamadeadboynow。”hesaidtohimself。Hehadnotthefaintestconceptionwhathismotherwasdrivingat,andthoughtshesuspectedaboutthewatch;butheheldhisground。