Theywanderedtoandfrowhenitwasday,andonceBarnabywentoffalonetoaclusteroflittlecottagestwoorthreemilesaway,topurchasesomebreadandmilk。Butfindingnobettershelter,theyreturnedtothesameplace,andlaydownagaintowaitfornight。
Heavenalonecantell,withwhatvaguehopesofduty,andaffection;withwhatstrangepromptingsofnature,intelligibletohimastoamanofradiantmindandmostenlargedcapacity;withwhatdimmemoriesofchildrenhehadplayedwithwhenachildhimself,whohadprattledoftheirfathers,andoflovingthem,andbeingloved;withhowmanyhalf-remembered,dreamyassociationsofhismother’sgriefandtearsandwidowhood;hewatchedandtendedthisman。Butthatavagueandshadowycrowdofsuchideascameslowlyonhim;thattheytaughthimtobesorrywhenhelookeduponhishaggardface,thattheyoverflowedhiseyeswhenhestoopedtokisshim,thattheykepthimwakinginatearfulgladness,shadinghimfromthesun,fanninghimwithleaves,soothinghimwhenhestartedinhissleep——ah!whatatroubledsleepitwas——andwonderingwhenSHEwouldcometojointhemandbehappy,isthetruth。Hesatbesidehimallthatday;listeningforherfootstepsineverybreathofair,lookingforhershadowonthegently-wavinggrass,twiningthehedgeflowersforherpleasurewhenshecame,andhiswhenheawoke;andstoopingdownfromtimetotimetolistentohismutterings,andwonderwhyhewassorestlessinthatquietplace。Thesunwentdown,andnightcameon,andhewasstillquitetranquil;busiedwiththesethoughts,asiftherewerenootherpeopleintheworld,andthedullcloudofsmokehangingontheimmensecityinthedistance,hidnovices,nocrimes,nolifeordeath,orcauseofdisquiet——nothingbutclearair。
Butthehourhadnowcomewhenhemustgoalonetofindouttheblindmanataskthatfilledhimwithdelightandbringhimtothatplace;takingespecialcarethathewasnotwatchedorfollowedonhiswayback。Helistenedtothedirectionshemustobserve,repeatedthemagainandagain,andaftertwiceorthricereturningtosurprisehisfatherwithalight-heartedlaugh,wentforth,atlast,uponhiserrand:leavingGrip,whomhehadcarriedfromthejailinhisarms,tohiscare。
Fleetoffoot,andanxioustoreturn,hespedswiftlyontowardsthecity,butcouldnotreachitbeforethefiresbegan,andmadethenightangrywiththeirdismallustre。Whenheenteredthetown——itmightbethathewaschangedbygoingtherewithouthislatecompanions,andonnoviolenterrand;orbythebeautifulsolitudeinwhichhehadpassedtheday,orbythethoughtsthathadcomeuponhim,——butitseemedpeopledbyalegionofdevils。
Thisflightandpursuit,thiscruelburninganddestroying,thesedreadfulcriesandstunningnoises,wereTHEYthegoodlord’snoblecause!