Kittyfoundallthisoutnotfromwords。MadameStahltalkedtoKittyastoacharmingchildthatoneregardswithpleasure,asoneregardsthememoryofone’syouth,andonlyonceshesaidinpassingthatinallhumansorrowsnothinggivescomfortbutloveandfaith,andthatinthesightofChrist’scompassionforusnosorrowistrifling-andimmediatelytalkedofotherthings。ButineverygestureofMadameStahl,ineveryword,ineveryheavenly-asKittycalledit-look;and,aboveall,inthewholestoryofherlife,whichsheheardfromVarenka,Kittyrecognizedthatsomething`thatwasimportant,’ofwhich,tillthen,shehadknownnothing。
Yet,elevatedasMadameStahl’scharacterwas,touchingaswasherstory,andexaltedandmovingaswasherspeech,Kittycouldnothelpdetectinginhersometraitswhichperplexedher。Shenoticedthat,whenquestioningheraboutherfamily,MadameStahlhadsmiledcontemptuously,whichwasnotinaccordwithChristianmeekness。Kittynoticed,too,thatwhenshehadfoundaCatholicpriestwithher,MadameStahlhadstudiouslykeptherfaceintheshadowofthelampshadeandhadsmiledinapeculiarway。Trivialasthesetwoobservationswere,theyperplexedher,andshehadherdoubtsastoMadameStahl。ButontheotherhandVarenka,aloneintheworld,withoutfriendsorrelations,withamelancholydisappointmentinthepast,desiringnothing,regrettingnothing,wasjustthatperfectionofwhichKittydaredhardlydream。InVarenkasherealizedthatonehasbuttoforgetoneselfandloveothers,andonewillbecalm,happyandgood。AndthatwaswhatKittylongedtobe。Seeingnowclearlywhatwasmostimportant,Kittywasnotsatisfiedwithbeingenthusiasticoverit;
sheatoncegaveherselfupwithherwholesoultothenewlifethatwasopeningtoher。FromVarenka’saccountsofthedoingsofMadameStahlandotherpeoplewhomshementioned,Kittyhadalreadyconstructedtheplanofherownfuturelife。Shewould,likeMadameStahl’sniece,Aline,ofwhomVarenkahadtalkedtoheragreatdeal,seekoutthosewhowereintrouble,wherevershemightbeliving,helpthemasfarasshecould,givingthemtheGospel;shewouldreadtheGospeltothesick,tothecriminals,tothedying。TheideaofreadingtheGospeltocriminals,asAlinedid,particularlyfascinatedKitty。Butalltheseweresecretdreams,ofwhichKittydidnottalkeithertohermotherortoVarenka。
Whileawaitingthetimeforcarryingoutherplansonalargescale,however,Kitty,eventhenatthesprings,wherethereweresomanypeopleillandunhappy,readilyfoundachanceforpracticinghernewprinciplesinimitationofVarenka。
AtfirstthePrincessnoticednothingbutthatKittywasmuchundertheinfluenceofherengouement,asshecalledit,forMadameStahl,andstillmoreforVarenka。ShesawthatKittydidnotmerelyimitateVarenkainherconduct,butunconsciouslyimitatedherinhermannerofwalking,oftalking,ofblinkinghereyes。ButlateronthePrincessnoticedthat,apartfromthisadoration,somekindofseriousspiritualchangewastakingplaceinherdaughter。