ThenextmorningIawokewithalighterbreast,rejoicinginthecautionwhichhaddelayedmefromanyrashmanifestationofsuspicionsnowseentobeabsurd。Ismiledasthethoughtarose:
whatifthissuspectedstrangershouldalsobepesteredbyanactiveimagination,andshouldentertainsimilarsuspicionsofme?
HemusthaveseeninmyeyesthelookofrecognitionwhichIsawinhis。Onhearingofthemurder,ourmeetingmayalsohaverecurredtohim;andhissuspicionswouldhavethiscolor,wantingtomine,thatIhappentoinheritwithmyItalianbloodasomewhattruculentappearance,whichhasgainedformeamongmyfriendstheplayfulsobriquetof”thebrigand。”
Anxioustoatoneatonceformyfolly,andtoremovefrommymindanymisgiving——ifitexisted——atmyquittinghimsosoonafterthedisclosuresofthemasqueradingdetails,IwenttoBourgonefassoonasIwasdressedandproposedarambletillthediligencestartedforMunich。Hewassympatheticinhisinquiriesaboutmycolic,whichIassuredhimhadquitepassedaway,andoutwewent。
ThesharpmorningairofMarchmadeuswalkbriskly,andgaveapleasantanimationtoourthoughts。Ashediscussedtheactsoftheprovisionalgovernment,sowise,temperate,andenergetic,thefervorandgenerosityofhissentimentsstoodoutinsuchstrikingcontrastwiththedeedIhadlastnightrecklesslyimputedtohimthatIfeltdeeplyashamed,andwasnearlycarriedawaybymingledadmirationandself-reproachtoconfesstheabsurdvagrancyofmythoughtsandhumblyaskhispardon。Butyoucanunderstandthereluctanceataconfessionsoinsultingtohim,sodegradingtome。