”Ididn’thavethatquiteinmind,butitwilldo。I’dpreferdoingthebrazenthingandhavingeverybodyknowit,todoingthefurtivethingandbeingfoundout。NotthatI’maskingtobeinvitedtolunch,”sheadded,withasmile;”butI’msureyouunderstandmyposition。””Thenwhynotrideopenandaboveboardwithmeinthehills?”heurged。Sheshookherheadwithwhatheimaginedwasjustthefaintesthintofregret,andhewentsuddenlyandalmostmaddeninglyhungryforher。”Lookhere,MissMason,Iknowyoudon’tlikethistalkingoverofthingsintheoffice。NeitherdoI。It’spartofthewholething,Iguess;amanain’tsupposedtotalkanythingbutbusinesswithhisstenographer。WillyouridewithmenextSunday,andwecantalkitoverthoroughlythenandreachsomesortofaconclusion。Outinthehillsistheplacewhereyoucantalksomethingbesidesbusiness。Iguessyou’veseenenoughofmetoknowI’mprettysquare。I-Idohonorandrespectyou,and……andallthat,andI……”Hewasbeginningtoflounder,andthehandthatrestedonthedeskblotterwasvisiblytrembling。Hestrovetopullhimselftogether。”Ijustwanttoharderthananythingeverinmylifebefore。I-I-Ican’texplainmyself,butIdo,that’sall。Willyou?——JustnextSunday?To-morrow?”
Nordidhedreamthatherlowacquiescencewasdue,asmuchasanythingelse,tothebeadsofsweatonhisforehead,histremblinghand,andhisalltoo-evidentgeneraldistress。BurningDaylight:PartII:ChapterXIVPartIIChapterXIV”Ofcourse,there’snowayoftellingwhatanybodywantsfromwhattheysay。”DaylightrubbedBob’srebelliousearwithhisquirtandponderedwithdissatisfactionthewordshehadjustuttered。Theydidnotsaywhathehadmeantthemtosay。”WhatI’mdrivingatisthatyousayflatfootedthatyouwon’tmeetmeagain,andyougiveyourreasons,buthowamItoknowtheyareyourrealreasons?Mebbeyoujustdon’twanttogetacquaintedwithme,andwon’tsaysoforfearofhurtingmyfeelings。
Don’tyousee?I’mthelastmanintheworldtoshoveinwhereI’mnotwanted。AndifIthoughtyoudidn’tcareawhooptoseeanythingmoreofme,why,I’dclearoutsoblamedquickyoucouldn’tseemeforsmoke。”
Dedesmiledathiminacknowledgmentofhiswords,butrodeonsilently。
Andthatsmile,hethought,wasthemostsweetlywonderfulsmilehehadeverseen。Therewasadifferenceinit,heassuredhimself,fromanysmileshehadevergivenhimbefore。