’Isupposethat’saboutall。Don’tletthemquarrelwithyouhereifyoucanhelpit。OfcourseatLongbarnstheywon’tlikeitforatime。Oh,——ifitcouldhavebeendifferent!’Thenhedroppedherhand,andturninghisbackquicklyuponher,wentawayalongthepath。
Shehadexpectedandhadalmostwishedthatheshouldkissher。
Agirl’scheekisneversoholytoherselfasitistoherlover,——ifhedoloveher。Therewouldhavebeensomethingofreconciliation,somethingofapromiseoffuturekindnessinakiss,whichevenFerdinandwouldnothavegrudged。Itwould,forher,haverobbedthepartingofthatbitternessofpainwhichhiswordshadgiventoit。Astoallthathehadmadenocalculation。butthebitternesswasthereforhim,andhecouldhavedonenothingthatwouldhaveexpelledit。
Sheweptbitterlyasshereturnedtothehouse。Theremighthavebeencauseforjoy。Itwasclearenoughthatherfather,thoughhehadshownnosignofyielding,wasneverthelesspreparedtoyield。ItwasherfatherwhohadcausedArthurFletchertotakehimselfoff,asaloverreallydismissed。But,atthismoment,shecouldnotbringherselftolookatthataspectoftheaffair。
HermindwouldreverttoallthosechoicestmomentsinherearlyyearsinwhichshehadbeenhappywithArthurFletcher,inwhichshehadfirstlearnedtolovehim,andhadthentaughtherselftounderstandbysomeconfusedandperplexedlessonthatshedidnotlovehimasmenandwomenlove。Butwhyshouldshenotsohavelovedhim?Wouldshenothavedonesocouldshethenhaveunderstoodhowtrueandfirmhewas?Andthen,independentlyofherself,throwingherselfasideforthetimeasshewasboundtodowhenthinkingofonesogoodtoherasArthurFletcher,shefoundthatnopersonaljoycoulddrownthegriefwhichshesharedwithhim。Foramomenttheideaofacomparisonbetweenthemenforceditselfuponher,——butshedroveitfromherasshehurriedbackintothehouse。