Don’tyoulikeMadameMerle?Isabelhadoncesaidtohim。Shethinksagreatdealofyou。
I’lltellyouonceforall,Osmondhadanswered。IlikedheroncebetterthanIdoto-day。I’mtiredofher,andI’mratherashamedofit。She’ssoalmostunnaturallygood!I’mgladshe’snotinItaly。
itmakesforrelaxation-forasortofmoraldetente。Don’ttalkofhertoomuch。itseemstobringherback。She’llcomebackinplentyoftime。
MadameMerle,infact,hadcomebackbeforeitwastoolate-toolate,Imean,torecoverwhateveradvantageshemighthavelost。Butmeantime,if,asIhavesaid,shewassensiblydifferent,Isabel’sfeelingswerealsonotquitethesame。Herconsciousnessofthesituationwasasacuteasofold,butitwasmuchlesssatisfying。A
dissatisfiedmind,whateverelseitmaymiss,israrelyinwantofreasons。theybloomasthickasbuttercupsinJune。ThefactofMadameMerle’shavinghadahandinGilbertOsmond’smarriageceasedtobeoneofhertitlestoconsideration。itmighthavebeenwritten,afterall,thattherewasnotsomuchtothankherfor。Astimewentontherewaslessandless,andIsabeloncesaidtoherselfthatperhapswithoutherthesethingswouldnothavebeen。Thatreflectionindeedwasinstantlystifled。sheknewanimmediatehorrorathavingmadeit。Whateverhappenstomeletmenotbeunjust,shesaid。Letmebearmyburdensmyselfandnotshiftthemuponothers!Thisdispositionwastested,eventually,bythatingeniousapologyforherpresentconductwhichMadameMerlesawfittomakeandofwhichIhavegivenasketch。fortherewassomethingirritating-therewasalmostanairofmockery-inherneatdiscriminationsandclearconvictions。InIsabel’smindto-daytherewasnothingclear。therewasaconfusionofregrets,acomplicationoffears。Shefelthelplessassheturnedawayfromherfriend,whohadjustmadethestatementsIhavequoted:MadameMerleknewsolittlewhatshewasthinkingof!Shewasherselfmoreoversounabletoexplain。jealousofher-jealousofherwithGilbert?Theideajustthensuggestednonearreality。