Myvisitproveduseless；heknewnothing，andIdidnotenlightenhisignorance。HetoldmeagreatmanylieswhichIpretendedtoacceptasgospel，andgivinghimtwosequinsIwentaway，wishinghimapromptrelease。
Iwasrackingmybraintocontrivesomewaytoknowthepositionofmymistress——forIfeltcertainitwasafearfulone——andbelievinghertobeunhappyIreproachedmyselfmostbitterlyasthecauseofhermisery。IhadreachedsuchastateofanxietythatIcouldneithereatnorsleep。
Twodaysaftertherefusalofthefather，M。deBragadinandhistwofriendswenttoPaduaforamonth。Ihadnothadthehearttogowiththem，andIwasaloneinthehouse。IneededconsolationandI
wenttothegaming—table，butIplayedwithoutattentionandlostagreatdeal。IhadalreadysoldwhateverIpossessedofanyvalue，andIowedmoneyeverywhere。Icouldexpectnoassistanceexceptfrommythreekindfriends，butshamepreventedmefromconfessingmypositiontothem。Iwasinthatdispositionwhichleadseasilytoself—destruction，andIwasthinkingofitasIwasshavingmyselfbeforeatoilet—glass，whentheservantbroughttomyroomawomanwhohadaletterforme。Thewomancameuptome，and，handingmetheletter，shesaid，\"Areyouthepersontowhomitisaddressed？\"
IrecognizedatonceasealwhichIhadgiventoC————C————；I