IwillvisitDonnaCeciliaonlynowandthen。\"Feelingmostunhappy，Itookhishandtopressitagainstmylips，buthefoldedmeinhisarmsasafathermighthavedone，andturnedhimselfroundsoasnottoletmeseethathewasweeping。
Idinedatthecardinal’spalaceandsatneartheAbbeGama；thetablewaslaidfortwelvepersons，whoallworethecostumeofpriests，forinRomeeveryoneisapriestorwishestobethoughtapriestandasthereisnolawtoforbidanyonetodresslikeanecclesiasticthatdressisadoptedbyallthosewhowishtoberespected（noblemenexcepted）eveniftheyarenotintheecclesiasticalprofession。
Ifeltverymiserable，anddidnotutterawordduringthedinner；mysilencewasconstruedintoaproofofmysagacity。Aswerosefromthetable，theAbbeGamainvitedmetospendthedaywithhim，butI
declinedunderpretenceofletterstobewritten，andItrulydidsoforsevenhours。IwrotetoDonLelio，toDonAntonio，tomyyoungfriendPaul，andtotheworthyBishopofMartorano，whoansweredthatheheartilywishedhimselfinmyplace。
DeeplyenamouredofLucreziaandhappyinmylove，togiveherupappearedtomeashamefulaction。Inordertoinsurethehappinessofmyfuturelife，Iwasbeginningtobetheexecutionerofmypresentfelicity，andthetormentorofmyheart。IrevoltedagainstsuchanecessitywhichIjudgedfictitious，andwhichIcouldnotadmitunlessIstoodguiltyofvilenessbeforethetribunalofmyownreason。IthoughtthatFatherGeorgi，ifhewishedtoforbidmyvisitingthatfamily，oughtnottohavesaidthatitwasworthyofrespect；mysorrowwouldnothavebeensointense。Thedayandthewholeofthenightwerespentinpainfulthoughts。