TosaythatRickiewasacat’s—pawistoputittoostrongly。
Herbertwasstrictlyhonourable,andneverpushedhimintoanillegalorreallydangerousposition;butthereisnodoubtthatonthisandonmanyotheroccasionshehadtodothingsthathewouldnototherwisehavedone。Therewasalwayssomediplomaticcornerthathadtobeturned,alwayssomethingthathehadtosayornottosay。Asthetermworeonhelosthisindependence——
almostwithoutknowingit。Hehadmuchtolearnaboutboys,andhelearntnotbydirectobservation——forwhichhebelievedhewasunfitted——butbysedulousimitationofthemoreexperiencedmasters。Originallyhehadintendedtobefriendswithhispupils,andMr。Pembrokecommendedtheintentionhighly;butyoucannotbefriendseitherwithboyormanunlessyougiveyourselfawayintheprocess,andMr。Pembrokedidnotcommendthis。He,for\"personalintercourse,\"substitutedthesafer\"personalinfluence,\"andgavehisjuniorhintsonthesettingofkindlytraps,inwhichtheboydoesgivehimselfawayandrevealshisshydelicatethoughts,whilethemaster,intact,commendsorcorrectsthem。OriginallyRickiehadmeanttohelpboysintheanxietiesthattheyundergowhenchangingintomen:atCambridgehehadnumberedthisamonglife’sduties。Buthereisasubjectinwhichwemustinevitablyspeakasonehumanbeingtoanother,notasonewhohasauthorityortheshadowofauthority,andforthisreasontheelderschool—mastercouldsuggestnothingbutafewformulae。Formulae,likekindlytraps,werenotinRickie’sline,soheabandonedthesesubjectsaltogetherandconfinedhimselftoworkinghardatwhatwaseasy。InthehousehedidasHerbertdid,andreferredalldoubtfulsubjectstohim。Inhisform,oddlyenough,hebecameamartinet。Itissomuchsimplertobesevere。Hegraspedtheschoolregulations,andinsistedonpromptobediencetothem。Headoptedthedoctrineofcollectiveresponsibility。Whenoneboywaslate,hepunishedthewholeform。\"Ican’thelpit,\"hewouldsay,asifhewasapowerofnature。Asateacherhewasratherdull。Hecurbedhisownenthusiasms,findingthattheydistractedhisattention,andthatwhilehethrobbedtothemusicofVirgiltheboysinthebackrowweregettingunruly。Butonthewholehelikedhisformwork:heknewwhyhewasthere,andHerbertdidnotovershadowhimsocompletely。
WhatwasamisswithHerbert?Hehadknownthatsomethingwasamiss,andhadenteredintopartnershipwithopeneyes。Themanwaskindandunselfish;morethanthathewastrulycharitable,anditwasarealpleasuretohimtogive——pleasuretoothers。
Certainlyhemighttalktoomuchaboutitafterwards;butitwasthedoing,notthetalking,thathereallyvalued,andbenefactorsofthissortarenottoocommon。Hewas,moreover,diligentandconscientious:hisheartwasinhiswork,andhisadherencetotheChurchofEnglandnomerematterofform。Hewascapableofaffection:hewasusuallycourteousandtolerant。Thenwhatwasamiss?Why,inspiteofallthesequalities,shouldRickiefeelthattherewassomethingwrongwithhim——nay,thathewaswrongasawhole,andthatiftheSpiritofHumanityshouldeverholdajudgmenthewouldassuredlybeclassedamongthegoats?Theansweratfirstsightappearedagracelessone——itwasthatHerbertwasstupid。Notstupidintheordinarysense——hehadabusiness—likebrain,andacquiredknowledgeeasily——butstupidintheimportantsense:hiswholelifewascolouredbyacontemptoftheintellect。Thathehadatolerableintellectofhisownwasnotthepoint:itisinwhatwevalue,notinwhatwehave,thatthetestofusresides。Now,Rickie’sintellectwasnotremarkable。Hecametohisworthierresultsratherbyimaginationandinstinctthanbylogic。Anargumentconfusedhim,andhecouldwithdifficultyfollowitevenonpaper。Buthesawinthisnoreasonforsatisfaction,andtriedtomakesuchuseofhisbrainashecould,justasaweakathletemightlovinglyexercisehisbody。Likeaweakathlete,too,helovedtowatchtheexploits,orrathertheefforts,ofothers——theireffortsnotsomuchtoacquireknowledgeastodispelalittleofthedarknessbywhichweandallouracquisitionsaresurrounded。Cambridgehadtaughthimthis,andheknew,iffornootherreason,thathistimetherehadnotbeeninvain。AndHerbert’scontemptforsucheffortsrevoltedhim。Hesawthatforallhisfinetalkaboutaspirituallifehehadbutonetestforthings——success: