ThemelancholythoughtsofTressiliancastagloomyshadeonalltheobjectswithwhichhewassurrounded。HecomparedthemagnificentsceneswhichheheretraversedwiththedeepwoodlandandwildmoorlandwhichsurroundedLidcoteHall,andtheimageofAmyRobsartglidedlikeaphantomthrougheverylandscapewhichhisimaginationsummonedup。Nothingisperhapsmoredangeroustothefuturehappinessofmenofdeepthoughtandretiredhabitsthantheentertaininganearly,long,andunfortunateattachment。
Itfrequentlysinkssodeepintothemindthatitbecomestheirdreambynightandtheirvisionbyday——mixesitselfwitheverysourceofinterestandenjoyment;andwhenblightedandwitheredbyfinaldisappointment,itseemsasifthespringsoftheheartweredriedupalongwithit。Thisachingoftheheart,thislanguishingafterashadowwhichhaslostallthegaietyofitscolouring,thisdwellingontheremembranceofadreamfromwhichwehavebeenlongroughlyawakened,istheweaknessofagentleandgenerousheart,anditwasthatofTressilian。
Hehimselfatlengthbecamesensibleofthenecessityofforcingotherobjectsuponhismind;andforthispurposeheleftthePleasance,inordertominglewiththenoisycrowduponthewalls,andviewthepreparationforthepageants。Butasheleftthegarden,andheardthebusyhum,mixedwithmusicandlaughter,whichfloatedaroundhim,hefeltanuncontrollablereluctancetomixwithsocietywhosefeelingswereinatonesodifferentfromhisown,andresolved,insteadofdoingso,toretiretothechamberassignedhim,andemployhimselfinstudyuntilthetollingofthegreatCastlebellshouldannouncethearrivalofElizabeth。
Tressiliancrossedaccordinglybythepassagebetwixttheimmenserangeofkitchensandthegreathall,andascendedtothethirdstoryofMervyn\'sTower,andapplyinghimselftothedoorofthesmallapartmentwhichhadbeenallottedtohim,wassurprisedtofinditwaslocked。Hethenrecollectedthatthedeputy—
chamberlainhadgivenhimamaster—key,advisinghim,inthepresentconfusedstateoftheCastle,tokeephisdoorasmuchshutaspossible。Heappliedthiskeytothelock,theboltrevolved,heentered,andinthesameinstantsawafemaleformseatedintheapartment,andrecognizedthatformtobe,AmyRobsart。Hisfirstideawasthataheatedimaginationhadraisedtheimageonwhichitdotedintovisibleexistence;hissecond,thathebeheldanapparition;thethirdandabidingconviction,thatitwasAmyherself,paler,indeed,andthinner,thaninthedaysofheedlesshappiness,whenshepossessedtheformandhueofawood—nymph,withthebeautyofasylph——butstillAmy,unequalledinlovelinessbyaughtwhichhadevervisitedhiseyes。