Theimpressionthatwasmadeuponmebytheincidentsofthatnightisindelible。Thewindgraduallyroseintoanhurricane;thelargestbranchesweretornfromthetrees,andwhirledaloftintotheair;otherswereuprootedandlaidprostrateontheground。
Thebarnwasaspaciousedifice,consistingwhollyofwood,andfilledwithaplenteousharvest。Thussuppliedwithfuel,andfannedbythewind,thefireragedwithincrediblefury;meanwhilecloudsrolledabove,whoseblacknesswasrenderedmoreconspicuousbyreflectionfromtheflames;thevastvolumesofsmokeweredissipatedinamomentbythestorm,whileglowingfragmentsandcinderswerebornetoanimmensehight,andtossedeverywhereinwildconfusion。Everandanonthesablecanopythathungarounduswasstreakedwithlightning,andthepeals,bywhichitwasaccompanied,weredeafning,andwithscarcelyanyintermission。
Itwas,doubtless,absurdtoimagineanyconnexionbetweenthisportentoussceneandthepurposethatIhadmeditated,yetabeliefofthisconnexion,thoughwaveringandobscure,lurkedinmymind;somethingmorethanacoincidencemerelycasual,appearedtohavesubsistedbetweenmysituation,atmyfather\'sbedside,andtheflashthatdartedthroughthewindow,anddivertedmefrommydesign。Itpalsiedmycourage,andstrengthenedmyconviction,thatmyschemewascriminal。
Aftersometimehadelapsed,andtranquilitywas,insomedegree,restoredinthefamily,myfatherrevertedtothecircumstancesinwhichIhadbeendiscoveredonthefirstalarmofthisevent。Thetruthwasimpossibletobetold。Ifelttheutmostreluctancetobeguiltyofafalsehood,butbyfalsehoodonlycouldIeludedetection。Thatmyguiltwastheoffspringofafatalnecessity,thattheinjusticeofothersgaveitbirthandmadeitunavoidable,affordedmeslightconsolation。Nothingcanbemoreinjuriousthanalie,butitseviltendencychieflyrespectsourfutureconduct。Itsdirectconsequencesmaybetransientandfew,butitfacilitatesarepetition,strengthenstemptation,andgrowsintohabit。Ipretendedsomenecessityhaddrawnmefrommybed,andthatdiscoveringtheconditionofthebarn,Ihastenedtoinformmyfather。
Sometimeafterthis,myfathersummonedmetohispresence。